Sorry its taken a little while to reply to thigns, this is the first time ive seen a computer since christmas, the library was closed and stuff. I did end up having a pretty good christmas, the meal was great, although I just wasn't feeling well so I couldn't eat much, We got sooooo much samoan food and left overs.
I did end up getting a camera, its a canon and so far I really like it. It was a little over $200.00, but now i like taking pictures more.
Everythings going great with my companion and my district. Its kinda weird though, I'm the district leader over the sisters and the zone leaders..BUt then the zone leaders are a leader over me...its interesting. haha.
NEw Years was good, nothing too extraordinary, but still good. The baptism of Jessica was great...there were lots of problems leading up to it...we were supposed to have it in one building but the bpatismal font wasn't suitable for the a baptism, there was mold and flies all over the ground because of a plumming problem, I cleaned it all out too!! but then it came back :( so last minunte we had to schedule the baptism for a diifferent building..that was pretty stressful, but in the end it all worked out, and she was baptized! then on sunday I was able to confirm her a member of the church, that was a pretty cool feeling, I just felt so happy for her. That was probably the highlight of the week/new year. Oh yeah, and the wards meeting times changed so this past week we had more time with the samoan ward...which gave me more time to study/read from the scriptures cuz I couldn't understand what they were saying in class.
I still haven't replied to any letters. Recently Ive just been on a letter shut down, I've been too stressed to have to think about what to write to everyone. I feel bad that its been taking so long for me to write to everyone but I've been busy. My schedule is normally 100% packed and on mondays i'm usually too exhausted to write, but i'm gonna try to continue towards finishing writing all the letters.
I'm glad jodi's doing well, I just got a letter from her and I saw the emails you forwarded to me, and i wish her the best of luck, to just keep working hard and enduring. i wish I could take lots of time to just talk to everyone, but thats a priveledge I haven't been permitted to have. Maybe sometime shortly I will have figured out a way to manage my time better so I can still talk to everyone more frequently. BUt thats why I may not be talking to people. Its not that I don't want to talk or hear from them, because just like jodi was saying, every letter is great and its like christmas getting one, but I can't reply right away, thats what makes it hard. especially since i could get 2-3 in a week and then have maybe an hour or so to reply on monday for all 3 and if I don't have time for that it just adds up each week until I get overwhelmed and shut down at the thought of trying to reply to everyone. Because I want so badly to be sincere and loving in my letters, which can't be as evident in letters that are only written in a short period of time because that gives the impression that i'm not caring and then i'm afraid that if I don't appear caring in the letter than whoever is writing won't reply back. Thats a fear that I have, that i will lose the control of a loved one talking to me, at least if i don't reply than its my fault and its not them quitting on me. But everyone who writes me, i'm thankful for the letters, I'm thankful for the time they put into talking to me. Plus another thing that makes it hard is the fact that I want to leave a good impression on those who are around me, and whenever i suggest staying home to write letters instead of going to P-Day activity(playing basketball or something) that makes it look like i'm not showing enough love for them and I need do whats better for the whole group rather than, in their eyes, being the "party pooper". So yeah, thats me rambling on and on and on...to let you know of the mental stress i'm actually going through and the dilemma I face each week when trying to figure who and when to write to people. BUt it is in no means my lack of love for them. My problem is, I want to make everyone happy and its hard. I'm not sure how, especially when sometimes I'm not even happy with myself, because in a lot of ways i'm kindve a perfectionist when it comes to missionary work and when I make mistakes i take it out on myself. I just want to do better, not that I feel I'm bad but my vision for excellence is on a much higher plane of thought than what I'm actually living. but yeah, now that I've used up most all of my time telling you a littlw bit about what i've been thinking i'll let you go, and maybe try to reply to heidi's email. if I have time.
As for other investigators we're still looking, we have some, but they're not as solid as I would hope, so hopefully soon more will come as we increase our efforts in finding.
Okay gotta go now...Love You!!
Elder Farnsworth
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